Probably when the saying of ' time flies fast when you are having fun' is true coz i can relate to my current situation. Ethan is back at labuan and i am here in Sandakan..so much for ' us against the world, huh, ethan baby?'... Ethan leave mommy all alone here:'(
Normal every day routine after work...is simply i do not have the time to trim my eyebrows, have my nails cut or even bath properly. It took me only max tops 2 mins to take a 'mandi kerbau' regime every day because ethan doesnt like to be left alone. There u go, ethan is put inside a basin and i will give him a few toys (usually it will be his rubber duckies and my facial foam~ he likes to open the lid using his newbie two teeth at the bottom) and he will be quiet in his own little world. But his quiet little world will only lasts for a minute. After that, its a game for him to open the toilet cover, holding on to my thigh and enjoy rubbing the suds off my skin...he just loves the slippery effect. Ethan is the type that gets bored quickly..I had no choice but to make sure to finish the remainings quickly. The implication of prolonging the bath session is that, ethan will try to go out of the basin which in the end, he will fall flat coz the basin couldnt hold his weight and what we get is a wet baby. o_O'
Feeding ethan will usually take about 20 minutes ( if he is in good mood), otherwise what i will encounter is a baby who gets up and trying to get off his high chair. He likes to be fed freely. He doesnt like to be tied down in one place, he likes to roam around, ethan me of someone..who you ask? Yeah, its the father, hahaha. My baby, love him to bits.
After finish all that, will take ethan to the bedroom and we will have 'us' time. He will disturb the dressing table. Push everything down to the floor. If he sees me pull out the drawer, he will quickly get up and crawl towards the drawer and take out what interests him. I am so occupied with ethan by my side. Sometimes i wish that i need the time alone.
However, my decision of leaving ethan at labuan backfires. I have so much time in my hands until i do not know what to do with my time! I stared at the ceiling for a while, replying messages on watsapp, fb, watch dvds....but despite all that, i missed having that bz time with ethan. This is not how i planned it. I realised that nothing beats that small arms holds u close, that tiny hands touching you...and not forgetting that smile. Oh that smile that really wash away all the worries in the world. Having ethan in my life is the greatest thing ever happen to me. I will never ever trade it for anything. His happiness is my happiness. Surely, i must have done at least something right in this world for God to send ethan into my life<3
Speaking about happiness. I do believe that it is not fair for me to have ethan all to myself. Depriving his happy moments with his grandparents in labuan. I do believe that ethan should be shared. His love is big enough for all of us. Let him get to know his grandparents as i myself do not have the chance of doing so. Let him know the Muslim teachings in due course via the father and grandmother. I am somehow not well equipped in the religion side as i myself is struggling to learn. InsyaAllah in due course i will obediently follow the teachings accordingly and guide ethan properly.
Counting down 5 more days and i cant wait to see my little poyoyo. Missing him so bad as i missed his cute antics. Mommy looking forward to see u darling. I do believe by putting up this blog ethan will see one day how much i love him. It is such a rewarding experience to become part of ethans life. I hope when i am no longer around, ethan can read this memoir his mommy and knows that, each action has its reaction. In the event if i ever upset him, i do it for his own good. But that is however, a few more years to deal with. Now....what to do next....?hmmmm..none. Go back stare the ceiling i guess.
I second the saying that 'time flies when you are having fun'. Indeed, i had so much fun with ethan as time flies so fast when i am with you, darling. My poyoyo....5 more days!
#cantwaittohugyouandsmellyou!
xoxoxoxo...mommy@sandakan
P/s pictures of u sent by aunty suri every day for mommy..day 4 today sayang<3
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