I have a confession to make. I find it difficult to live without my other half. Staying apart does make the heart grow fonder. It makes the heart grow crazy for missing your partner. It cries at the sight of other families who can spend time together eating dinner at one table. But all this to the extend of positive jealousy, of course. I am glad my friends are able to do that because i just hate the idea of another family being separated like us.
Managing your thriving 11 months' baby is no easy task. But hey, it is all part of the mommy process. MIL can do it, so can i. Other mothers across the globe can do it, so will i. MIL has to be apart with FIL for many2 years since FIL works offshore most of the time, So, managing 3 kids back then with the age difference of 2 years apart each can be daunting and challenging. Hmmmm... i am wondering how she manage to cope doing it all. Truly a remarkable person indeed. Whilst my mum faces the same hurdles back then. Because my eldest sister's gap with my 2 brothers were a year apart another one was 2 years.
To think of it, it is scary handling a baby on your own.Ethan was sick when we got back from KK on Monday. 3 days in a row his body was on heat, esp the head, neck and torso area. Had to get up at midnight just to checked up on him.Still i sent to the nursery because i have too many work to do.Tawakal jak....
Evening time, Ethan's condition was okay.Midnight, the nightmare begins.3 days in a row been feeding him with neurofen. A stronger dosage of painkiller for babies..a duration of 6 hours . I think the effect got into him since his eyes has double eyelids due to the feeding. poor baby! Aside from that, been feeding him with 'soronipon'. A collection of rumput paka and other herbal remedies to remove the heat from the body. I believe it works because I happened to be experiencing the nearing fever symptoms and what i did was drank a full jar of the 'soronipon'. Voila, im one of the living proof that 'soronipon' works!
But after doing all that, thank God that Ethan's fever subside on Thursday.After much prayers, neurofen and 'soronipon'. Such a huge relief! Miracles are always there for you and me.
Bottomline, as far as i try to teach my heart that i can do it, but there is a big part of me cries Fendy's presence. May God give me n Ethan strength to go through this. hopefully my transfer is sooner than i think....
xoxoxo
missing fendy=x
p/s pictures of MIL back in the 70s..groovy baby.And another recent picture was took during her 2nd trip down to Sandakan taken at RDC, Sepilok.
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