Dear Post... i feel like the feeling of leaving behind someone you loved eats you inside...bit by bit. Nothing beats the feeling of loneliness creeping inside you. It is just me and Ethan here in the room that we rented and it feels so strange to be living in a place that you barely know the person right next door.
I am feeling so dissapointed as this age of mine, I should've have bought a nest for my family to settle in. Not by living nomadic like this. Dear Ethan...Mommy wish nothing but the best for your wellbeing. And to thing Daddy is away, makes the pain harder.
Aside from being lonely, bills are creeping up as well. Truly a remarkable experience to live day by day on faith alone hoping for the next day to get better. Simply rejoice to Allah for He keeps me going everyday.
There are some days that all you want to do is wallow on your sorrows. But that would be impossible as dear dear Ethan keeps me up and going. Such joy to see this innocent little soul's eyes looking back at you hoping you take care of him, guide him and protect him.
Mommy promise sayang, mommy will never let you down. Mommy will face tommorrow bravely for you are with Mommy.
love love love little one xoxoxoxo
mommy:,)
